♥ Poem ♥
Onto the sea
I sailed my boat
And prayed that it
Would stay afloat
From dawn till dusk
From dusk till dawn
In search of love
I drifted on
What happened then
I don't recall
I think it was
A sudden squall
For when I awoke
I thought I died
At the sight of an angel
At my side
But lucky for me
That was not true
For I found love
And love was you.
- Britney Brundage -
♪ Robot Day
Saturday, May 31, 2008
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7:23 PM
Woooooo! Back from Secondary School Camp!! The past few days were so fun/cool/powerful!!
Lets recap what happened from day 1!!!
Day 1,
Early morning need to wake up to go school for chinese oral, peiwei and i were the first 2 to do the oral so we left pretty early... I reached home and samantha was just walking to the MRT station! Laugh out loud! Got my stuff ready and left home just when samantha reached home! Haha!! I proceeded to meet up with Patrick, Alex, James & Larry at commonwealth station. Was feeling kinda sad as I kind of being left out in the MRT.. Most likely because Alex was angry with me.. So I felt kind of awkward talking in the pressence of her.. Felt low in the train ride.. I remember I was thinking of a question but somehow I cannot remember it now! Oh my gosh! Kind of made peiwei pissed off when the MRT stopped at Paya Lebar.. Gah.. But luckily, peiwei is one who doesn't hold bad grudges!! Went up to the auditorium to pay the camp fees and went to put down my bag.. I accidentally put my things at the girls room which is like "... " luckily someone told me and I moved over to the other room... Went down to gather in my team and found out I was with chen fei and alot of strangers! Haha! I was welcomed by my team assistant, Ruo En( I don't know how to spell >_>), with a loud OHHHH, SO YOU ARE JIA XIAN!!! Yeap, something like that, then soon after that the camp started!! As usual, it was the Cheer part and we were brief-ed on the rules! Haha, we left for sentosa at around 12.30.. During the bus trip, my team took the oppotunies to know each other.. My team consisted of Gabrielle, Jan, Amber, Chen fei, Hong Hui, Lionel, Eric, Wei Hao, 1 girl who doesn't want to tell me her name, Ruo En and me! Haha.. We had quite little people compared to others... We gathered at sapphire pavilion to have our lunch and it was free and easy time afterwards.. Chen Fei and John wanted to go in the sea.. So they took out their shirts and somehow managed to drag me into it.. We then tried to pull people down. We managed to pull wen qi down but other didn't want to.. Haha.. Oh right we pulled OCK down too! Haha.. Then I did something retarded.. I ran and jumped into the sea with my glasses still on me.. So it dropped into the sea.. I was panicking and asked John and the people around to help find.. When all hope was lost.. John and I was discussing what to do.. Just then.. I accidentally stepped on my specs.. What a miracale! The photo hunt game then started.. My team needed to go palawan beach, beach station, song at the sea and siloso beach. But we ended doing 3 stations only as our map kind of got torn into pieces as it was wet... It started to rain so we all crammed inside the pavilion! We decided to play volleyball and soon the weather changed.. So, we went outside to play real volleyball it was quite fun until Jian Ming decided to change the game to TOUCH RUGBY!! We were brief-ed on the rules and the game started.. The scene was just too funny... Once Jian Ming got the ball, absolutely no one dare to stop him.. Haha.. Soon it became real rugby unknowingly.. That was the part when the fun just began.. The highlights of the game:
1) I got spear-ed by Jian Ming
2) Kelvin acting SISSY with peiwei( he wanted to try to stop peiwei from touching down, so he hugged her.. In the end... He screamed instead of peiwei..)
3) Peiwei tried to bounce the ball on sand.. She thought it was basketball as usual...
Haha.. So funny right.. Too bad, we had to go back quite early.. We reached church at 7 p.m and bathing time started.. After that was Dinner then the movie screening! Haha.. 2 movies to choose from.. Narnia and Evan Almighty.. We chose to watch evan.. So about 2hours later the show ended.. The night was still young and we decided to watch another one ... Which is highschoolmuscial!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Enjoyed the time spent disturbing Kelvin in the room by singing songs! He left the room in the end! LAUGH OUT LOUD!! Then it was the midnight games and debrief.. 1 Camper had to drink strawberry bread blended with water and milk! FREAKING SICK LOR!!! Then it was lights out at 3 a.m..
Day 2,
Woke up at 8.. Surprised as quite alot of people woke up already.. Went to wash up and came back to pack my sleeping bag.. By then.. All woke up already.. Kelvin decided to go down to have his breakfast and then he was late for the morning briefing.. Retarded right? Had my breakfast and moved my bag to multi-purpose room 1.. Went back down to be brief-ed about the next game.. FOOD CROSS.. Kind of like an Amazing race.. But we need to link up food names.. Very complicated to explain here haha... Had lots of fun there.. I ate quite alot too.. THE DUCK RICE, THE BANANA MILK and THE EGG TART was awesome!! Ended up sixth but who cares! We had fun that's all! The game ended at 2 and we cleaned the church up for PASTOR TAN'S SERVICE!! All the campers switched to their smart casual clothes.. Mr Kind John was willing to help me style my hair with wax! I was so excited! ( First time.. Cannot blame me).. After that.. we were seated for pastor tan's service.. It was about spiritual birth, spiritual adoption and spiritual birth.. THE PRESSENCE WAS SO STRONG.. And when he prayed for our leaders.. All of them just fell under the power of the god.. Even I.. Standing like 10 metres away almost fell.. Yea.. That's how powerful it was.. Oh my.. IF only you were there, SAM.. ^^ Yea.. I felt super light after the service even though I was exhausted from the camp! Isn't that cool stuff? Oh right.. The cheers at the camp was super entertaining.. So much better than ASPIRE 08 one... The second night's midnight game was... 13 BOXES.. Its the game where you have to put your hand in and feel what's inside.. And guess what.. There was a box with frog, another with chicken liver, another with squid and prawn, another with a cow lung... FREAKING SICK MAX!! Haha.. The moment I lied down.. I knocked out le..
Day 3,
It must be the service the day before, stealing all my energy away.. I woke up at 9.30.. Wake up call was at 9.. Haha.. Had breakfast and went down for GREAT SINGAPORE WORKOUT.. Found it rather amusing and retarded.. Haha.. After that was cleaning up of the church for the Zone F service!! After it was the changing of shirt to smart casual again.. Once again Mr Kind John styled my hair with wax! Thanks John! So then comes the ZONE F service.. MAN I AM TIRED MAX... During worship I'm already like falling asleep.. I tried my best to stay awake but in the end fell asleep.. SORRY DOMINIC!!! Haha i realised my handwriting in half-sleep mode is shitty lol can write diagonal one.. WE ended the camp with the last praise song and everyone was burning high! Haha.. Went to eat downstairs.. Shared quite alot of jokes at the kopitiam! So fun! We waited for jeanie's mother to arrive and we train-ed home.. Continued to share jokes until we all knock out in train! Haha!
And finally, I'm home!!! Man.. I want SSC AGAIN!!!
Special thanks to Samantha Teo An Qin!!! For keeping me company when I was feeling down!! Thank you!!
Added at 12.50 a.m:
Wow.. I really cannot believe I can piss people off just by talking to them.. Sorry samantha!!
P.U.S.H = Pray Until Something Happens
What in the blue moon is wrong with me?
Let no one despise your youth, but be an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity. timothy 4:12
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
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10:31 PM
Just came back from church.. Man.. I sure asked a lot of questions to myself today.. One time was during the train ride to paya lebar, the other was the trip back from paya lebar...
First time.. During the train ride to Paya Lebar, while Alicia and Samantha were busy chatting, I was asking myself.. What does LOVE means to myself... Here are my answers:
1) Love is about letting go.
2) Love is not just about BOY GIRL RELATIONSHIPS.
3) Love exists in many many different form!
4) Love is DEFINITELY NOT desperation.
5) Loving someone does not mean Needing someone!
6) Love is clearly shown through GOD!
Yeap!! That is about it.. The 6 answers i thought of during the train ride before coming back to reality..
Second time.. During the train ride from Paya Lebar, when WeiLing(William), XinChi(JeanieCute/MariaYes), Lala(Larry), Peiwei(Patrick) and Alicia(Alex) were busy discussing 'Stuffs' and laughing until their faces turn red... I was asking myself this!
"What am i borned for?"
This time I have no list for the answers, but somehow a testimony came into my head when I thought of the answer..
Here's some of my past,
As a young boy, I grew up in a very sad environment, some examples that made my life this way was, being bullied in school almost everyday in primary school, being bullied by my cousins during weekends when they come over to my house.. Which means i almost get bullied everyday in the week! Thinking back now.. I actually find it cool! Laugh out loud.. This environment made me a 'complain king' as well as a 'cry baby' in primary school.. However, when i graduated from primary school and got enrolled in "CTSS!".. I decided to change myself in order make friends! Thus, I did my research, and yes i really did my research, and found out that quite a number of young teenagers could use some fun in their lives, thus i tried being a joker, and yes that's how i became so retarded in school. Everything started off fine, especially when i sat with shu feng in secondary 1! As my class is rather filled with jokers such as, Nigel Tan Wee Yao, Niger Ang Yi Dong, Amos Chiam Hui Qin, Jeffrey Tan Jun Xun and none other than Lee Tat Wee.. I found myself making alot of close friends! And yes that's how Sai Kang Warriors/Shit Hole Talibans were formed.. So when a person finds that his attitude is helping him make friends, by nature he will bring it to the next level so he could make more friends! And so.. Being a retarded me, I made myself even more retarded like acting like a clown infront of my class.. Now I'm in secondary three, ALL of the jokers had been seperated from me.. There was no more Niger to tag team with me in chinese class, there was no more Nigel to laugh with in Mathematics class, there was no more, 'Yi La Si Ding'(Elastic direct translation a.k.a my chinese group name), to joke with.. Okay... I just realised i drifted off topic >.>... Back to the main point.. All along in my mind, I felt that I was borned to joke and bring joy to people's lives, there was a point where i felt i was borned to console my friends to make them feel better.. But now I realise, I brought more pain then joy to people, I brought more hatred then consolation to my friends.. So what am I really born to do? I couldn't think of the answer for the future me.. But all I know.. The time is almost ripe for me to move on to JIAXIAN 2.0! A brand new JiaXian which is better than what i am now!
My Sincere Apologies to:
Alicia Wong
Janise Tan
Lee Peiwei
Samantha Teo for playing with your hair and made you pissed >.<
Lim Shu Feng
Kelvin Ong("L") Reason: For beating you for fun
Although I may feel lonely, depressed, scared, horrified, terrified, crestfallen... but withyou, god, by my side, I have absolutely nothing to fear!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
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2:02 AM
WOH.. Guess i'm finally back! (after a long long time!)
Anyway, Alot of things happened these few weeks!
Examples..
An outing which resulted in 4 blisters on my legs!
Peiwei's 'beautiful' history!
RED RAIN CONCERT 2008!
Start of school holidays!
The birth of my nephew/niece!
Isn't life amazing? It is truly made of ups and downs... Haha.. Anyway.. Its 2.07 a.m now... and guess what? B1 is having their happy time now!! Laugh out loud! Everyone's so high! ESPECIALLY Peiwei,XinChi,Lala&Samantha! Haha it's so wonderful to see people having the night syndrome!
But why do I can't help it but to feel so low inside myself even when i'm so high on the outside? Perphaps its jealousy that got to me? Perphaps its the anger that was inside me? Or could it be the stress and frustration I have?
I feel happy for Samantha for what she experienced during the red rain concert! Haha i felt so high that time I really wanted the time to stop! The presence was so so high! But just what is that void in my heart? I really want it to go away!!!
I AM BUILD ON FAITH AND SUCCESS!! I WILL FIND OUT WHAT THAT VOID IT!! I WILL!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
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9:25 PM
Yo people!!! Back from church.. Today's sermon was fast/cool/interesting/inspiring/awesome! Although our pastors are out of town today.. The church somehow got their hands on an awesome video! Its a sermon preached by pastor cho! He is the pastor of the 750,000 people in Korea! WOW! He was preaching about effective prayer! SO cool! Anyway did not stayed for dinner.. Rushed home to celebrate Mother's Day!!!
Oh i almost forgot i got school tomorrow! Past few days was awesome! Especially yesterday night while me and Nigel was advertising S.K.W ,the next R.E.M, on battle.net! L.O.L! well S.K.W came from the things we shared... Cause we'll always make a joke out of it.. Now you know why we are Sai.Kang.Warriors..
Well, Yesterday was not a exception.. When we gathered and chatted.. Hell broke loose! Lol.. Especially the Msn chat.. Well, It was so funny, I cried and couldn't breathe for like 10 seconds? *that is an achievement! okay!*
Haiz... Why must there be always something that screws up my day?
Mood now : Cheated, Lied , Angry
RAH
COUNTDOWN TO RED-RAIN: 13 days!
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2:31 AM
COUNT DOWN TO 13 days!
Okay... What the buck... I did this post like at what... 2..30 am?
Thus concluding, 3 a.m sleeping time curfew for the win!!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
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8:05 PM
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
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8:42 PM
YO!!! It's been a long time folks! As you know, these few days was my paper so i didn't update for a long long time! And you know what... ALOT OF PEOPLE SAYS I NEVER UPDATE!!!! BUT THEY NEVER LINK ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (f5)
Alright! Join me as i recall what happened in the past few days!!!
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Lol... I didn't remember a thing... haha i think i need time to recall.. that's all for now...
MY BLOG IS ACTIVE AGAIN!!!
MOOD : NERD